I hate"............

I hate my life, I hate myself and I hate YOU!  My life was good until you decided that the new, improved pinup picture version of you was too good for me.  Or I wasn't good enough for you.  Either way, I have tried to move on.  I have a place, stuff cats but I am empty.  Completely and totally empty.  I go nowhere, I do nothing.  My only wish is that I could just sleep forever.  Not die, just sleep.  When you sleep at least you have your dreams, I don't even have those.  

I try to go out and mingle.  I end up an island in a room of 50 people who pass by without a glance or make perfunctory comments just to be polite.  I am so utterly alone it hurts.  I try to mask it but it's hard to be happy when you're not.

To top it off you bring your "good friend" to graduation.  Thanks ,nothing like rubbing my nose in it.  Made you feel special I'll bet.  

I feel like I don't deserve to be happy or to be loved and appreciated.  I feel like a toy that the kid no longer wants.  I live in fear that my life will end alone, cold and miserable.  I guess that was God's plan for me all along.  Thanks for nothing Big Guy.